It’s Friday and time for 5 minute friday-where I join up with the gypsy mama and write for 5 minutes-no stopping, no editing. This week’s prompt is LOSS. In order to do this, I’m going to continue writing about what I was writing about yesterday with FEWER WORDS THURSDAY.
When I was 19, I got into some trouble and people I had known forever refused to forgive me, telling me that I deserved everything I got. They said, “I don’t want to hear about your fear, it’s too late for that.”
They also said, “Your life is over. Now, you have to think about the baby. It’s life is about to begin. You can’t be selfish and think about what you want. It’s too late for that. You have a decision to make.”
I had lost everything and in making this decision, I gave up everything to make everyone else happy. I’ve been carrying around this secret for 19 years now. After 1 session with a counselor, I feel less shame about letting it out.
I know God forgives me. I have a lot of unresolved issues from that time. Everyone has moved on but me. Everyone has been happy but me.